Bury all your secrets in my skin.
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins.
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.

Deliver me into my Fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago,
If I can change I hope I never know.

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss.
I couldn't face a life without your light,
But all of that was ripped apart, when you refused to fight.

So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint...
Ooh, my own was banished long ago,
It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul.
You never needed any help...
You sold me out to save yourself...

And I won't listen to your shame.
You ran away, you're all the same.
Angels lie to keep control...
Ooh, my love was punished long ago,
If you still care, don't ever let me know...

25th march 2009 ..the day i can never forget in my life never ever ..the day that came in n shattered all my dreams all my plans .The day that made me realize wat i am worth of ..

It ws a day prior to my cet results . 'Tomaro is my result..how did i perform in it... quite well maybe i can get a score around 100 + and with gd pi i can sneak into a good college n realize my lost dream back ' as the thoughts were goin thru i was getting nervous n bit anxious ..i believed in God he will not leave in despair he will guide me n get me a descent score . But he had some other bitter plans for me ..

When i was in my third year of my engineering i thought ok one more year to go i have to study as hard as possible n improve my aggregate beyond 55 % and by that i can attend Software company's interviews .. i will get a good job and i will have a hefty salary . Life will be bounce back n my hardship will gain fruit .I was having 3 kTs in the first year of my engineering it was a result of my vagabond nature ..it was due to my own mistakes , my own actions that land me into clearing just 2 subjects out of 5 in the first sem . When i took admission in engineering i thought ok KT is a reward for those who doesn't attend colleges, roam about and for those who start studying from the 11th hour ..i was pretty confident 40 marks out of 100 is quite simple thing and i can manage that easily ..BUt it made me realize its not that simple ..maybe i was categorized in the so said students too .I tried hard to clear the back logs but as the load increased it affected the upcoming exams too i have to clear 5+3 total 8 subjects at hand that too at a single stroke ..i failed to do so again got a KT in 1 subject ..and that thing(KT) was companion for me till my sem 4 ...i cleared the back logs but got a Kt in the fresh sem and to add.. my term work marks got dripping even upto 11 marks .. maybe the lecturers din like my face or the lectures din bother to support us guys ..who the hell will do anyways ..KT students wat fucking seriousness do they have in their studies ??..i remember when i was in second sem, we had workshop wherin we have to perform fitting, carpentry n stuffs .. i was pretty interested in it as i find practical things more than theoretical stuffs ;but during the lunch break as we always do while playing football i broke my left leg's ligaments that made me to sit at home for 2 week or so ..my leg was on a cast and i was sitting whole day on my bed ..when i came back to college i understood theres been a dispute or so between our drawing lecturer MR dhale sir n the students of our class , my term tests were pending , assignments THNKS to my dear frnds i cud manage to complete while i was at home in my bed .. u knw theres some bastards around us who misuses his power or hold on something so was one of the workshop sir .." SIR " i have not regrets for such people calling them a RATt instead of sir ... when i resumed my workshop i realised my job was pending with few days to go for the final submisson n the sir was making his bussiness out their .. 250 bucks n complete job will be done by the rascal..that too he will take previous years job ,done by students n gave us . He approached me too but i preferred doin my own ...with that grudge or maybe he din get a chance to fuck me ...i got 45/100 in workshop when other students got above 70 . He managed to spat my ass ...'move on' as always . With due regards to the asshole my aggregate was well blow 50 % ..their after i was constantly striving for increasing it above 55 % and my professors were backing me up by lowering my term work marks . All i was havin a zeal in my mind was no problem is my term works marks are low i will score high in subjects n nullify the loss ..67 marks ,83 marks 75 marks ..i was able to get into the subjects ..by the last year my agrregate touched 53 % and i was having that courage that i can manage to cross it beyond 55 % .. finally at the end of my engineering ,the last sem i scored 67% n pulled my aggregate to 55.5% ( a 0.5% as consolation i guess ) ..the day i was on the result section for the last sem of engineering i thought OK i can now get a JOB into a software company and can archive my dreams but wait hold on !!! fate has some other plans ...'RECESSION TIME ' .. no jobs for freshers , recruited guys are made to sit at bench assuring them they are wll with the so said offer letter but date of joining will be late .. wat bad cud one expect ..posted resume at various job portals but no reply it was a dire state again ..

It was the month of JUNE as advised by all "its the best time for higher studies MBA as one can get thru the recession period n come out when the fucking recession will eventually vanish".
CAT , XAT , SNAP..gave them all but cudn able t fetch good marks in them ..or maybe i am capable enough to even score in an entrance exam . CET common entrance test.. conducted by DTE ..the last resort for me to get into a good B school , the very last last resort of the year. CET is basically consisting of 200 questions with 1 mark for each question ..its all about speed 200 question @ 150 min ..need to be quick in thinking and able to complete as many questions as possible .. after the SNAP it was December i started gearing for CET ..planned topic wise study ,solved few mock papers .. Feb 15th the cet exam date ..paper was ok i managed to complete the 200 question my strategy was to spend not more than 2 min on a single question and sole most of them correctly and with 10 mins to go i will mark the remaining questions on a fluke ... by the same time i was also lookig for a job as a backup if the cet doesn't get as much my expectation i will have a job atleast ..but failed i cudn manage anywhere or maybe there was no job i still wonder why people say theres job still in market maybe i am a moron or maybe i am fucking blind to grab them ..

AS the cet result date was nearing all was running thru my mind was "Ok this is it... the last chance " ." will i be able to get into a good college ..can i or i can;t " ...anxious at the same time confident that God will surely pull me out and show me a path .. On the 25th march by the time it was 6 pm while goin thru the CET community on a social network i saw a thread reading 'RESULTS ARE OUT "..i quickly clicked it .. "i gt so n so wat are the last years cut off" ... i was scared to go thru the website n check my result therefore called up my frnd n ask her to see my result ..

Some time are moments in life when u expect something n seeks dead opposite to it ..some times there are moments when we doubt ourselves ,we doubt our potential ...IT was loud and it was shattering . I cud manage only 76 marks out ot 200 that made me a 70.47 percentile holder..i cudn belive my ears ..that time all i was seeing was HELL it was feeling like a big stone is being tied in my foot with hands tied n thrown in a deep pit underneath . MY hopes , my dreams everything came crashing ..For a momnet i was so upset i felt i shud ran away at the other i felt i am only worth of it. My last resort crashed i fucked in life again ..i screwed on my own .. i din not perform well in the exam n so do i got less .. I still don know wat to do ahead maybe a job n try cet agin next year ...or maybe a P course but job where is it ? PG course will i able to get that ? who i am ? Why is it happening ? Am i really have that potential or i just faking myself ? WAT next ?? .... 'MOVE ON ' as they say ... fucking move on in life . Lost in despair ..this was my ultimate hance to grab it which i cudnt to do so ... 76 marks thats says it all to me wat i am worth of !!!

THE DAY I WAS MADE TO FIND MY EXISTENCE ..THE DAY THAT MADE ME REALISE WAT I AM UPTO ..THE DAY I CAN NEVER FORGET !!!

A story

A Story of a person who looks life slightly different from everyone.

Jerry is a manager of a restaurant in San Francisco. He is always in a
good mood
and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him
how he was
doing, he would always reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed
jobs, so
they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason
the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a
natural
motivator. If an employee was having a bad day,Jerry was always there,
telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.
Seeing this
style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked
him,
"I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How
do you do it?".

Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two
choices today.
I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood.
I always
choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can
choose to be a
victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from
it.
Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept
their
complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always
choose the
positive side of life.".

"But it's not always that easy," I protested.
"Yes it is," Jerry said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away
all the junk,
every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations.
You choose how
people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad
mood. It's your
choice how you live your life."
Several years later, I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you
are never
supposed to do in the restaurant business: he left the back door of his
restaurant
open one morning and was robbed by three armed men. While trying to
open the safe,
his hand, shaking from nervousness, slipped off the combination.
The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and
rushed to the hospital.

After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was
released from the
hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body. I saw Jerry
about six
months after the accident.

When I asked him how he was, he replied,"If I were any better, I'd be
twins.
Want to see my scars?"
I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his
mind
as the robbery took place.
"The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have
locked the
back door," Jerry replied. "Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the
floor, I
remembered that I had two choices: could choose to live or could choose
to die.
I chose to live.
"Weren't you scared" I asked.
Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great.They kept telling me I was
going to be
fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the
expressions
on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their
eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I needed to take action."
"What did you do?" I asked.

"Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me," said
Jerry.
"She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes', I replied.
The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply.
I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter,
I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am
alive, not dead."

Jerry lived. Thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of
his amazing attitude.
I learned from him that every day you have the choice to either enjoy
your life or to hate it.
The only thing that is truly yours (that no one can control or take
from you) is your attitude,
so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much
easier.

TATA NANO ..the people's car

Finally the time has come ..march 23rd as Mr Ratan Tata had declared the cheapest car has been launched in mumbai .Its been a fair game altogether wat i feel thanks to Mr Ratan Tata, now even a poor can think of possessing a car .. and trust me the cheapest car doesnt compromise with the features ,the performance (though its not upto the level of BMW series but more than one can even think of having things under 1 lakh )... it would be put on display in showrooms across the country in the first week of April. Bookings for the car will open in the second week of April.Theres been a thing or two saying abt the booking price as one have to shell out the entire car cost at the time of booking but as per the sources (unconfirmed) the booking amount is likely to be Rs 70,000.The Tata Nano will be priced between Rs. 1 lakh and Rs. 1.34 lakh.Initially, Tata Motors will not add any new dealers to its existing dealership network, but it may do so after a few months. But as per the news as i saw today ..the dream car after booking will only be available after 1 yr or more..i.e after booking you ought to wait for an year or so to get the keys of ur car ..

It will be available in following 3 variants:

• Base
• CX
• LX

The Base model will feature Seat Belts, Engine opening through rear bumper, Speedometer, Odometer, High mounted Rear Stop lamp, Centrally placed exhaust, Only Driver seat adjust-sliding and reclining, Fixed front passenger seat, Folding Rear Seats, 2-Spoke Steering wheel, Grey bumpers and interiors, Driver side Outside rear view mirror.

The CX will feature AC, Tinted glasses, Metallic paint along with the features of Base Nano. The top end LX model will come with following features in addition to the features in CX:

• Tripmeter
• Front Power windows
• Central Locking
• Front and Rear fog lamps
• 3-Spoke Steering wheel
• Moulded door trim with fabric inserts
• Floor console with glass holder
• Anti-Glare inside rear view mirror
• Sunvisors on both sides

All the models will come with 18 Months or 24,000 kms whichever is earlier. It will be available in 6 colors - Bright Red, Ivory White, Summer Blue, Champagne Gold, Lunar Silver and Sunshine Silver

Nano has been designed with a family in mind, has a roomy passenger compartment with generous leg space and head room. It can comfortably seat four persons. Four doors with high seating position make ingress and egress easy.

With a length of 3099mm, width of 1495mm, height of 1620mm and with adequate ground clearance, it can effortlessly manoeuvre on busy roads in cities as well as in rural areas.

Its mono-volume design, with wheels at the corners and the powertrain at the rear, enables it to uniquely combine both space and manoeuvrability, which sets a new benchmark among small cars.

Nano has a rear mounted , all-aluminium, two-cylinder, 624 cc, multi point fuel injection petrol engine which develops maximum power of 35 Bhp at 5500 rpm with maxiumum torque of 48 Nm at 3000 rpm. This is the first time that a two-cylinder petrol engine is being used in a car with single balancer shaft.

The lean design strategy has helped minimise weight, which helps maximise performance per unit of energy consumed and delivers high fuel efficiency. Performance is controlled by a specially designed electronic engine management system.

Due to rear mounted engine the luggage space has been pushed to the front. Making the engine closer to the fuel tank has another advantage of increased fuel efficiency.

Rear mounted engine also help in reducing the power loss during transmission. Nano has front disk and rear drum brakes. The company claims mileage of 22 kmpl in city and 26 kmpl on highway.

By adhering to the fact that less weight requires less power, Nano is made of light weighing steel. This has made the Tatas come up with a cheap alternative with out compromising on safety and performance.

With an all sheet-metal body, it has a strong passenger compartment, with safety features such as crumple zones, intrusion-resistant doors, seat belts, strong seats and anchorages, and the rear tailgate glass bonded to the body.

Tubeless tyres further enhance safety. It exceeds current regulatory requirements with a strong passenger compartment, crumple zones, intrusion resistant doors, seat belts, strong seats and anchorage.

stunning features for a 1 lakh car isn't it ??
So guys, the cheapest car with more than desirable features has finally arrived ..i wud like to own one wat abt u ?


courtesey various sources

My new PC system ...finally !!

Sexy ,sleek, soft , wide view ..whoa hold on its my new PC for whom i am been prasing about . After a very long time almost 5 yrs or so i finally got a new computer system for me . Loaded with monster speed processor and a superb RAM memory to support ..its just awesome feeling !!

It was 19th of march ..after placing my requirements it had been told by the computer sales cum engineer that he will bring at around 9 -9 30 late . I was thrilled and was anxious to get a hand on the machine .. on the same day mom had arranged a prayer meeting at my home . The prayer meeting was about to begin at 8 and it used to last to an hour . Mom had instructed to clean the mess from my room as well as neat clean n arrange stuffs around home ... i started early morning to get the cleaning work done and completed it by noon ... i called him( computer engineer) again so as to ensure he'll be comin .. the prayer meeting commenced at sharp 8 , people started gathering in gradually and as usual, prayers devotional songs began . It ended at around 9 9-15 .. i was waiting for the engineer to arrive .. the hour hand crossed 10 .. i tried calling him but Network problem .. its been 10 45 and i felt ok so now i wont be getting to take a feell of my new pc and i have to wait more .. but suddenly he called up and said he will be comin by 5 10 minutes on his way ... he came setup ed the PC components and thats was it !!!

2.8 ghz intel core 2 duo processor
2 gb ddr II ram
500 gb hdd
18.5 " lcd monitor
wat else wud i wish more ...

great feeling ..the speed is simpley lightining ..and huge memory capacity means i can now store my movies with any limitation and ram support added more edge to the complete package .

The water game !!!

Water is a cool weapon against the summer heat. Bathing in water and staying beside water can both help cool your body down. Even simply drinking watercan also help you combat the summer heat and help maintain the body in a nice state, both physically and mentally. So here come some helpful suggestions on drinking water properly in the summer.

When at home

1 Form a good water drinking habit. Drink more between meals, rather than when you are tired, or have a headache. These are symptoms of heatstroke. And the water you drink needs to be high quality pure water.

2 Have an adequate intake of salt added to boiled water. Sweating makes people lose so much salt that sometimes drinking pure water can't quench their thirst. This is when salty boiled water comes in handy.

3 Drink some water when your stomach is empty in the morning. Your body will easily absorb the water, as you will be thirsty after a whole night's sleep. The water intake will boost your metabolism and stimulate your immune system.

4 Drink milk, soybean milk, green bean soup, and thin porridge rather than only staple foods for breakfast. You can also have tomato soup, plum juice and fresh juice after or before meals. This will supplement the body with various vitamins as well as beat summer heat.

When out traveling

1 Take lightly salty water -- about 1 gram of salt for every 500ml of water. Salty water supplements the body with various minerals like natrium and kalium.

2 Drink water several times when traveling, but drink a little bit each time. The amount of water you drink within an hour should not exceed 1 liter.

3 The water you drink should not be too cold, which can upset your stomache. The water temperature is best at around 10 degrees Celsius.

4 Drink some sweetened water to supplement the sugar stored in the body, as intense activity can drain the sugar from your body.

5 Last but not least, never drink unsanitary river or lake water when traveling to avoid catching any diseases.

mirror in my room !!!

Theres a mirror in my room who watches me all the time
when i gets up when i sleeps
when i sit alone when my friends join me n laugh
theres a mirror in my room who watches me all the time
And i fake a smile so that he wont see me ..

Theres so much happening in front of me
theres so much happened behind me ..
i love the way its goin on with me
cos its been hard to hate it
all my life i wander form places
there was no one but the miror when i come back to base
And i fake a smile so that he wont see me

i was a vagabond since you left me saying it was none
people around me watching me over in vengeance
i walked in those streets people starring
were they afraid or they dint cared
it doesnt even mattered to me anyways
it was raining heavily ,
the thunders sounding loud .
the streets were lonely ,
but it didnt mattered me anyways
i was walking with a song of urs
playing my guitar, with my old pair of shoes
i was walkin towards the heaven
and when i came back to my room
theres the miror wacthing me
and i faked a smile so that he wont see me

i thought i can change the temperature
till the weather changes to good
it was getting hot in in the core
i came to my room and the mirror noticed me again
and i faked a smile so that he wont see me

theres a miror in the my room
and i still continue to fake so tat he wont see me !!!!!!